God is freedom. God is the one main factor of freedom. Religion, in fact, is freedom.
I never saw anyone with greater freedom than people who believe with the deepest submission to their religion. Look at the tabligh followers with full beard and weird scent, aren't they as free as birds? Migrating from one place to another, living with no specific routine. It's like camping, except they do it everyday. And I think camping is liberating, letting go of all our beloved routine which we cling so much to and stay in a foreign land with bare necessities.
How can tabligh people survive this daily camping? How can they even want to be there in the first place? I can only see that religion is the only reason for these behaviours, and the belief should be really, really, really deep.
And these Buddhist monks with deep orange drape, don't their feet ache going slipperless and aren't they feel a little naked walking around without the undergarments? I mean, who could do that unless you really believe in their God/s.
But this guy from Fight Club says, 'Losing all hope was freedom'. They all are nihilists, aren't they? They say existence is senseless and godlessness rules, and they claim they have found freedom. And I do think they found freedom of some sort.
Come to think of it, their freedom can equalise the freedom we see from the bearded men and the monks, the freedom is otherworldly in some sense, weird for the outsiders like us but it's like second skin to them.
Probably it is not God who makes these people do what they do, probably it is just belief, either the belief in God or belief in godlessness. These beliefs ought to be so strong and powerful to get the result of freedom, no question asked, godly or nihilistic, the belief should be rock solid. So, to claim your freedom. God or no God? It's your call...
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Writing and Cinema Experience
Writing these words is like coming home, it is like being back to your bed and close your eyes and letting the air engulf you. I miss the act of writing itself, the act of sitting in the dark and typing away. I miss being this purposeless and writing my anger in a blank sheet of 'Journal Entry'.
I am in the end of the so-called one-year objective, my masters degree (God help me!). I guess it's time again to be in the dark and typing. It really feels like home.
This time, I won't try to be anything else but myself. In the sense that, I will not limit myself to certain rules of being in a particular group of people. In the sense that, I could write anything truthful of what I think even though it will go straight to people's hearts. All in good intention, not to condemn but just my thought for the better. Don't need to be all sensitive for what Azrul says, he is just this naïve guy with nice good intention to boot.
People who know me should know this, should know how harmless I can be. So don't go all tensed up and all sensitive with me, I hate that.
Sometimes when I'm writing, just like now, I feel like I'm wasting my time. When I should be doing something better, like doing 'real work', I write. But come to think of it, unlike some people, I rarely watch TV and so rarely I find anything in the cinema to be palatable so writing is my substitute.
So technically, I am in the winning side. I see people in the cinema as escapees who want to be alone with the silver screen in the dark, just them and the screen. Wrapping themselves in sounds and sight that are foreign to them. To have an unworldly experience with the help of these imaginary blasting of sound and beaming of colours on the screen. I view cinema as a lonely experience, you might not go alone but the whole experience is just to be alone in the midst of people. Couples might see this as an excuse to keep deathly quiet and to keep a little bit of their sanity.
With my keyboard and screen, I do that too. This is my imaginary field, where world revolves around me, the screen and the words. I create my field of play, I create my words and expression, the colours are in my head. Movie watching and writing satisfy you with the experiences and I should never think less of what I am doing.
This is my substitute of my movie experience. That's until I find movies with the calibre of Before Sunset, Eternal Sunshine and some say, Juno.
I am in the end of the so-called one-year objective, my masters degree (God help me!). I guess it's time again to be in the dark and typing. It really feels like home.
This time, I won't try to be anything else but myself. In the sense that, I will not limit myself to certain rules of being in a particular group of people. In the sense that, I could write anything truthful of what I think even though it will go straight to people's hearts. All in good intention, not to condemn but just my thought for the better. Don't need to be all sensitive for what Azrul says, he is just this naïve guy with nice good intention to boot.
People who know me should know this, should know how harmless I can be. So don't go all tensed up and all sensitive with me, I hate that.
Sometimes when I'm writing, just like now, I feel like I'm wasting my time. When I should be doing something better, like doing 'real work', I write. But come to think of it, unlike some people, I rarely watch TV and so rarely I find anything in the cinema to be palatable so writing is my substitute.
So technically, I am in the winning side. I see people in the cinema as escapees who want to be alone with the silver screen in the dark, just them and the screen. Wrapping themselves in sounds and sight that are foreign to them. To have an unworldly experience with the help of these imaginary blasting of sound and beaming of colours on the screen. I view cinema as a lonely experience, you might not go alone but the whole experience is just to be alone in the midst of people. Couples might see this as an excuse to keep deathly quiet and to keep a little bit of their sanity.
With my keyboard and screen, I do that too. This is my imaginary field, where world revolves around me, the screen and the words. I create my field of play, I create my words and expression, the colours are in my head. Movie watching and writing satisfy you with the experiences and I should never think less of what I am doing.
This is my substitute of my movie experience. That's until I find movies with the calibre of Before Sunset, Eternal Sunshine and some say, Juno.
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