Religion: For Once, I Feel So Sure

One day, about three months ago, I have decided to keep my religious standing to myself. I have forced myself to believe that people want to hear what they wanted to hear and what they already heard so many times before.

Just to make some people happy, I obliged to keep what I think to myself and without making any uncalled statements or to question anything. I was this very sombre and very typical boy for once.

But then something struck me on the head, some realization, some monotonous nagging feeling and some optimism that says people are wilful animals. We want something to be better than it is. No matter how much we seem to have resisted the change, we need them nonetheless. It is just a matter of time. So, I will continue to say what I think, here and rather modestly, outside.

I should call this as dogmatic fear, an established fear. This fear to apply some logical thinking in the way we see religion. In fact, I tried to instill in myself to not apply logical thinking but to no avail, it would simply not make any sense to leave logic out of the door, simply outrageously impossible. So I decided keep counting in logic in my team.

Some people say that the one and only way to heaven is through their way. I didn't even try to believe, it is simply incoherent to say this. While we might have the same core values, we are not a herd of sheep, aren't we? Interpretation and definitions are definitely individualistic. We might have the same God and the same prophet, but might have many differences in matters smaller than this. Rub off your one line to heaven, I simply can't take it in.

Some people say that the new thoughts are unnecessary, the older the thoughts the better they are. It sounds acceptable at first but to think again, I would not accept this as well. How can anyone be so psyched about keeping the old thoughts? I believe that the Quran and the Sunnah are timeless but the interpretation should change in line with time. Interpretation is man-made; they are expected to not survive the test of time. Even the very evidence-based theories in physics are continuously challenged, let alone the very subtle interpretation.

Now, I am happy the way I am. Neither am I liberal nor fundamentalist. Nor muktazillan, nor sesat. I am just finding my way and enjoying the process. Like it or not.