Writing and Cinema Experience

Writing these words is like coming home, it is like being back to your bed and close your eyes and letting the air engulf you. I miss the act of writing itself, the act of sitting in the dark and typing away. I miss being this purposeless and writing my anger in a blank sheet of 'Journal Entry'.

I am in the end of the so-called one-year objective, my masters degree (God help me!). I guess it's time again to be in the dark and typing. It really feels like home.

This time, I won't try to be anything else but myself. In the sense that, I will not limit myself to certain rules of being in a particular group of people. In the sense that, I could write anything truthful of what I think even though it will go straight to people's hearts. All in good intention, not to condemn but just my thought for the better. Don't need to be all sensitive for what Azrul says, he is just this naïve guy with nice good intention to boot.

People who know me should know this, should know how harmless I can be. So don't go all tensed up and all sensitive with me, I hate that.

Sometimes when I'm writing, just like now, I feel like I'm wasting my time. When I should be doing something better, like doing 'real work', I write. But come to think of it, unlike some people, I rarely watch TV and so rarely I find anything in the cinema to be palatable so writing is my substitute.

So technically, I am in the winning side. I see people in the cinema as escapees who want to be alone with the silver screen in the dark, just them and the screen. Wrapping themselves in sounds and sight that are foreign to them. To have an unworldly experience with the help of these imaginary blasting of sound and beaming of colours on the screen. I view cinema as a lonely experience, you might not go alone but the whole experience is just to be alone in the midst of people. Couples might see this as an excuse to keep deathly quiet and to keep a little bit of their sanity.

With my keyboard and screen, I do that too. This is my imaginary field, where world revolves around me, the screen and the words. I create my field of play, I create my words and expression, the colours are in my head. Movie watching and writing satisfy you with the experiences and I should never think less of what I am doing.

This is my substitute of my movie experience. That's until I find movies with the calibre of Before Sunset, Eternal Sunshine and some say, Juno.